Sexy Six

My bf from high school got married at the end of September. I took pics on my mom's camera and never did anything with them. Kris (the bride) put her professional pics on facebook, so I thought I'd steal hers since they're cute than mine. Anyway, here's a couple pics of me and my girls on Kris's big day. In high school we were inseperable. We dubbed ourselves "the sexy six." We were pretty cool. Still are, really. It's been forever since the six of us have been together, and it was lots of fun hanging out again for the night. It almost made me miss high school. Also, I hope it wasn't illegal to steal her pictures, so sorry if it is. But not too sorry cause they're really cute.

Martha, Ashley, Kris, me, Em, and Liz

Nathan

Nathan was (jokingly) complaining tonight about how I never blog about him, and since I didn't write a sappy post about how wonderful he is on our anniversary (8.26) here's one now. So, Nathan, you'll never read this, but here's your post.

Nathan, I'm not really sure you knew what you were getting into when you married me. Actually, I think you did know, which makes you all the more amazing. There isn't a man on this earth who would put up with me the way you do. How you have the patience to deal with me while I'm pregnant and unmedicated I'll never understand, but you do it and love me inspite of it. There are few people who really get me, and I'm grateful that I'm married to you, one of the few people who does. I'm so glad that I get to spend eternity with you-love you!

P.S. This is probably the second picture we ever had taken together, but we're still skinny there, and I can't let all of you who live far away see what I really look like. Yikes!

Finally-a picture! My mom posted pics of Maya on her facebook and while I'm not computer savvy enough to figure out her picture program, I did manage to steal this from her facebook. Serisously, she's the cutest thing ever.

I don't know if I'm the only mom who has ever felt this way, but I often wonder if my future children can ever measure up to Maya. I would just look at her after she was born and think, none of my other kids will ever be as cute as she is. And now that she's older she just keeps getting cuter, smarter, funnier, you get the picture. I don't know if I can love another baby the way I love Maya. Even now that I'm pregnant, I wonder that. I'm sure that will all change once he gets here, but seriously, he has some big shoes to fill.

It's a BOY!

I'm glad to be able to say that with some excitement now. I'm ashamed to admit that I was slightly devestated when we were told we were having a boy. Go ahead and judge. I would if I were you. There are women all over the world desperately seeking medical treatment to be able to have a child and would be thrilled beyond measure to have a boy or a girl, and here I am, pregnant after trying for just one night, and I was sad that I wasn't having a girl. I really wanted Maya to have a little sister and have always wanted to have a houseful of daughters. Well, not really a houseful. Maybe just two. Unless some miracle occurs-and by miracle I mean accident-Maya won't have a sister. It still makes me a little sad that Maya won't have that because I don't know what I'd do if I didn't have my sister, but she'll never know the difference anyway. I am excited to have a boy now though. A little scared. Well, a lot scared. Everyone says that boys are so much easier than girls, but I'm not so convinced. I don't get boys. I guess I'll learn though. I would post a pic, but let's be honest...ultrasound pictures really aren't that cute, and all babies look the same at this point anyway.

Just to clarify...

I feel like I should expound a little on my last post. A LOT of you do some or all of the things on my little list. If you think it's your blog I'm referring to, most probably it isn't. If you can sew and take beautiful pictures then why shouldn't you show that off on your blog? It's the blogs where people BRAG about their abilities and push their opinions (mostly about breastfeeding) on other people that bother me. And MOST blogs I read aren't like that. And really, these people can post whatever the heck they want on their blog. I don't have to read it, and they don't have to read my blog. Basically, this is all coming from an unmedicated bipolar pregnant lady who has massive amounts of hormones surging through her body. I can't be held accountable for what I say. I just wanted to make sure I didn't offend all you breastfeeding, baby food making, clothes sewing, photographer moms out there. I guess I'm always on edge because there have been comments made about why I don't do some of these things, and I'm just sensitive. I can't guarantee that for the next six months there won't be more depressing, gripey posts, but I'll try to throw some fun ones in there too.

My name is Micah, and I'm a blog stalker.

I have a really bad habit. I spend far too much of my day reading blogs. Sometimes I know the people and sometimes I don't. But, hey we all do it sometimes, right? No? It's just me? Sometimes I read posts and feel totally inspired and uplifted and my days is better because of them. BUT most of the time reading blogs just makes me feel totally inadequate as a mom and just as a human being because here's the thing...

• I didn't breastfeed Maya, and I won't breastfeed baby #2. Go ahead and judge. Most people do.
• I don't use cloth diapers.
• I don't make Maya's clothes or my own (or any other thing that involoves a sewing machine, or even just a needle and thread).
• I also don't make cute little headbands.
• My house is NEVER clean. Maybe if company is coming. Maybe.
• I rarely cook. I never bake.
• I'm not a vegetarian and I don't feed my family all organic food.
• I don't want a big family. Baby #2 will probably be the last.
• I'm on an insane amount of anti-depressants to make me happy, and even then...(the reason baby #2 will probably be the last).
• I'm not a photographer.
• I'm not even a good blogger. (I am good at reading them. Does that count)?

I really could keep going, but I think you get the idea. I feel like I'm stuck. In the real world I'm not successful because I didn't graduate from college and I don't have a job. I have a friend (who shall remain nameless) whose mom has constantly judge me for this. In the Mormon world I'm not successful, well, for all of the above reasons plus some. I guess I'm hoping it's not just me and other women feel inadequate and useless at times. Well, was that depressing enough for you? Next time I'll come back with cute pictures and some happy thoughts, but like I said, I'm not a very good blogger...

The past three months...

Whew...a lot has happened since I last posted, and I really don't remember most of it. So, this really shouldn't be that long of a post. I'm sorry to say that this won't include any pictures. Our camera broke and is very low on the list of new purchases to make, and my mom's picture program is way too complicated for me to figure out. Anyway, on to the update...

April: Got settled into our new house. I need to post pictures. I've been wanting to wait until it was fully furnished and decorated to post some, but if I wait to do that they'll never get posted. We love living in Litchfield, and Nathan's commute to work (which people gave us tons of grief about) hasn't been to bad. Maya and I went to Disney World with my mom and brother. It was, of course, tons of fun, but it was sad not being able to take Nathan.

May: Most everyone knows now, but we found out we are having another baby. It was planned, but it was still kind of a surprise because it happened so fast. Pregnancy this time around is basically miserable. I don't think we'll be doing it again, but I suppose that's for another post.

June: Maya turned 18 months and developed quite the attitude. I didn't know kids her age could be like this. She's quite the little rebel, doesn't like to share, doesn't like to listen to Nathan and me...I don't even know what to do with her. My mom said she wanted me to have one just like me, and I definitely did. On the other hand, she's the cutest kid ever and can be very sweet when she wants to be.

July: Like the rest of the summer it has been very uneventful. We spend most of our days at the pool. Maya is a little fish-no fear of the water at all. She has made some good friends at the pool. Adults of course, she would have to share her toys with kids.

So, this was pretty much the most boring post ever. I'm sorry if you made it this far. Hopefully next time I'll have pictures and we'll have done something exciting, but let's be honest....that's just not my life. I love it anyway though!