35 down, 5 to go!

me. not at 35 weeks, but this is about all you're gonna get.

This pregnancy has seemed to drag on forreeever, but now I can't believe that I only have five weeks left. We still have so much to do and are so much more unprepared than we were when we were getting ready for Maya. If he's anything like Maya though, I'm sure we have a little longer than expected to prepare. This pregnancy is the polar opposite of how Maya's was. I don't know if it's because this time around we're having a boy...is there really any truth to the fact that carrying a boy and girl is completely different? I don't want little man to read this somewhere down the line, and see a long miserable post about this pregnancy and get some kind of complex. Let's not start the "mommy issues" any earlier than we have to. I don't want him in therapy too young. So, let's just say that this pregnancy has been an experience and that we won't be doing it again. Just five more weeks though and baby no-name will be here, and I will have a cute, little (or in my case-big) baby to snuggle with. It can't come soon enough!

2 Year Stats

I know you all have been anxiously awaiting to see how Maya has grown these last few months, and I'm not one to disappoint, so here you go!

Height: 35 in. 90% (almost anyway. the dr. couldn't give me an exact precentile)
Weight: 27 lbs. 8 oz. 50%

So, my chubby little baby is gone. It's sad, but she's still cute as ever. Coming soon-Maya's birthday post.

Big Girl Bed

Maya finally made the transition to her "big" girl bed. We've had it for a month now, but she just wasn't ready for it, and there was no need to push it. We tried again this last week, and she has done so well! The first couple of nights were hard because she got up a thousand times. You think I'm exaggerating, but I assure you, I'm not. Night #3 I got mean and held the door shut, so she couldn't get out. She cried for about 15 minutes and then went and got in her bed, and she has done great ever since. I'm really amazed she adjusted so quickly. This kid doesn't like change. She's a lot like me in that way unfortunately. Don't mind the purple walls and pink bedding. We'll paint them eventually when we decide not to be lazy and can actually afford to do it. And, yes, that is my "big" girl sucking away on her pacifier. Our goal to have it gone by the time she turned one, 18 months, and then two have flown out the window. We don't want to traumatize her too much, and I think baby #2 is going to do enough damage.

October Life

I always make a mental promise to myself that I am going to get better at blogging and then I totally slack off and go another two months without posting. I'm horrible at remembering to take pictures though, and a blog with no pictures isn't very exciting. So, here I am again, vowing to do better and document all the happenings here at the Hawk house. Unfortunately, life isn't all that exciting, so there isn't too much to report, or maybe it's just that pregnancy is frying my brain and I can't remember all the eventful things that have happened in the last month or so. Here are some pictures taken over the month of October-all Maya of course cause she's way cuter than Nathan and me. I will be posting some preggo pics pretty soon though, so #2 doesn't feel neglected since I've failed to mention him on the blog. So, stay tuned for a pregnancy post and some really scary pictures of yours truly, and for now, enjoy the pics of our little terror cause she sure is cute!

Sexy Six

My bf from high school got married at the end of September. I took pics on my mom's camera and never did anything with them. Kris (the bride) put her professional pics on facebook, so I thought I'd steal hers since they're cute than mine. Anyway, here's a couple pics of me and my girls on Kris's big day. In high school we were inseperable. We dubbed ourselves "the sexy six." We were pretty cool. Still are, really. It's been forever since the six of us have been together, and it was lots of fun hanging out again for the night. It almost made me miss high school. Also, I hope it wasn't illegal to steal her pictures, so sorry if it is. But not too sorry cause they're really cute.

Martha, Ashley, Kris, me, Em, and Liz

Nathan

Nathan was (jokingly) complaining tonight about how I never blog about him, and since I didn't write a sappy post about how wonderful he is on our anniversary (8.26) here's one now. So, Nathan, you'll never read this, but here's your post.

Nathan, I'm not really sure you knew what you were getting into when you married me. Actually, I think you did know, which makes you all the more amazing. There isn't a man on this earth who would put up with me the way you do. How you have the patience to deal with me while I'm pregnant and unmedicated I'll never understand, but you do it and love me inspite of it. There are few people who really get me, and I'm grateful that I'm married to you, one of the few people who does. I'm so glad that I get to spend eternity with you-love you!

P.S. This is probably the second picture we ever had taken together, but we're still skinny there, and I can't let all of you who live far away see what I really look like. Yikes!

Finally-a picture! My mom posted pics of Maya on her facebook and while I'm not computer savvy enough to figure out her picture program, I did manage to steal this from her facebook. Serisously, she's the cutest thing ever.

I don't know if I'm the only mom who has ever felt this way, but I often wonder if my future children can ever measure up to Maya. I would just look at her after she was born and think, none of my other kids will ever be as cute as she is. And now that she's older she just keeps getting cuter, smarter, funnier, you get the picture. I don't know if I can love another baby the way I love Maya. Even now that I'm pregnant, I wonder that. I'm sure that will all change once he gets here, but seriously, he has some big shoes to fill.

It's a BOY!

I'm glad to be able to say that with some excitement now. I'm ashamed to admit that I was slightly devestated when we were told we were having a boy. Go ahead and judge. I would if I were you. There are women all over the world desperately seeking medical treatment to be able to have a child and would be thrilled beyond measure to have a boy or a girl, and here I am, pregnant after trying for just one night, and I was sad that I wasn't having a girl. I really wanted Maya to have a little sister and have always wanted to have a houseful of daughters. Well, not really a houseful. Maybe just two. Unless some miracle occurs-and by miracle I mean accident-Maya won't have a sister. It still makes me a little sad that Maya won't have that because I don't know what I'd do if I didn't have my sister, but she'll never know the difference anyway. I am excited to have a boy now though. A little scared. Well, a lot scared. Everyone says that boys are so much easier than girls, but I'm not so convinced. I don't get boys. I guess I'll learn though. I would post a pic, but let's be honest...ultrasound pictures really aren't that cute, and all babies look the same at this point anyway.

Just to clarify...

I feel like I should expound a little on my last post. A LOT of you do some or all of the things on my little list. If you think it's your blog I'm referring to, most probably it isn't. If you can sew and take beautiful pictures then why shouldn't you show that off on your blog? It's the blogs where people BRAG about their abilities and push their opinions (mostly about breastfeeding) on other people that bother me. And MOST blogs I read aren't like that. And really, these people can post whatever the heck they want on their blog. I don't have to read it, and they don't have to read my blog. Basically, this is all coming from an unmedicated bipolar pregnant lady who has massive amounts of hormones surging through her body. I can't be held accountable for what I say. I just wanted to make sure I didn't offend all you breastfeeding, baby food making, clothes sewing, photographer moms out there. I guess I'm always on edge because there have been comments made about why I don't do some of these things, and I'm just sensitive. I can't guarantee that for the next six months there won't be more depressing, gripey posts, but I'll try to throw some fun ones in there too.

My name is Micah, and I'm a blog stalker.

I have a really bad habit. I spend far too much of my day reading blogs. Sometimes I know the people and sometimes I don't. But, hey we all do it sometimes, right? No? It's just me? Sometimes I read posts and feel totally inspired and uplifted and my days is better because of them. BUT most of the time reading blogs just makes me feel totally inadequate as a mom and just as a human being because here's the thing...

• I didn't breastfeed Maya, and I won't breastfeed baby #2. Go ahead and judge. Most people do.
• I don't use cloth diapers.
• I don't make Maya's clothes or my own (or any other thing that involoves a sewing machine, or even just a needle and thread).
• I also don't make cute little headbands.
• My house is NEVER clean. Maybe if company is coming. Maybe.
• I rarely cook. I never bake.
• I'm not a vegetarian and I don't feed my family all organic food.
• I don't want a big family. Baby #2 will probably be the last.
• I'm on an insane amount of anti-depressants to make me happy, and even then...(the reason baby #2 will probably be the last).
• I'm not a photographer.
• I'm not even a good blogger. (I am good at reading them. Does that count)?

I really could keep going, but I think you get the idea. I feel like I'm stuck. In the real world I'm not successful because I didn't graduate from college and I don't have a job. I have a friend (who shall remain nameless) whose mom has constantly judge me for this. In the Mormon world I'm not successful, well, for all of the above reasons plus some. I guess I'm hoping it's not just me and other women feel inadequate and useless at times. Well, was that depressing enough for you? Next time I'll come back with cute pictures and some happy thoughts, but like I said, I'm not a very good blogger...

The past three months...

Whew...a lot has happened since I last posted, and I really don't remember most of it. So, this really shouldn't be that long of a post. I'm sorry to say that this won't include any pictures. Our camera broke and is very low on the list of new purchases to make, and my mom's picture program is way too complicated for me to figure out. Anyway, on to the update...

April: Got settled into our new house. I need to post pictures. I've been wanting to wait until it was fully furnished and decorated to post some, but if I wait to do that they'll never get posted. We love living in Litchfield, and Nathan's commute to work (which people gave us tons of grief about) hasn't been to bad. Maya and I went to Disney World with my mom and brother. It was, of course, tons of fun, but it was sad not being able to take Nathan.

May: Most everyone knows now, but we found out we are having another baby. It was planned, but it was still kind of a surprise because it happened so fast. Pregnancy this time around is basically miserable. I don't think we'll be doing it again, but I suppose that's for another post.

June: Maya turned 18 months and developed quite the attitude. I didn't know kids her age could be like this. She's quite the little rebel, doesn't like to share, doesn't like to listen to Nathan and me...I don't even know what to do with her. My mom said she wanted me to have one just like me, and I definitely did. On the other hand, she's the cutest kid ever and can be very sweet when she wants to be.

July: Like the rest of the summer it has been very uneventful. We spend most of our days at the pool. Maya is a little fish-no fear of the water at all. She has made some good friends at the pool. Adults of course, she would have to share her toys with kids.

So, this was pretty much the most boring post ever. I'm sorry if you made it this far. Hopefully next time I'll have pictures and we'll have done something exciting, but let's be honest....that's just not my life. I love it anyway though!

Visiting and old friend

Three more days and we're heading back to Disney World. Heaven on Earth. Not even kidding.

Saying goodbye to the mullet...

Before: Maya and the craziness that is her hair
During: getting rid of the mullet
Sadly there is no after shot. We forgot to get a picture. I'm sad that she was so young when I cut her hair for the first time, but the mullet was getting out of control as you can clearly see in the first picture. And now she is oh, so cute!

7 more days...

...and this will be all ours!

Tubby Time

How can you not love this face? It makes my day!

Maya May

Maya at 14 months:

Runs everywhere she goes

Loves food-chocolate is a fave

Loves Baby Einstein

Still isn't talking-says "Bi-ah"-don't know what that means though

Doesn't sleep through the night and still has to be rocked to sleep-she's a little spoiled

Loves shopping, but hates the stroller-that makes for a fun trip for mom and grandma

Grandma's girl through and through

and last but not least

cute. as. ever.

Happy Birthday, Hubby!

Obviously a super old picture, but our computer crashed taking with it our pictures

and the camera is still broken, so this will have to do. Plus we're skinny here, so why not, right?

Nathan's birthday isn't until tomorrow, but blogging sounded like a good idea, so I thought I would with him a Happy Birthday today.

I'm so glad that you were born. You're my bf and the love of my life. I hope you have the best day-you deserve it!

Love,

your beautiful wife

Tagged

My sister-in-law Stacie tagged me to do this, and since I've been in a little bit of a blogging rut I thought maybe this will be a good way to get me out of it.

4 shows I like to watch:
1.Days of Our Lives (I know...)
2.Ellen
3.Today Show
4.Life Unexpected

4 things I am passionate about:
1.Pictures-I have gotten Maya's pictures taken every three months since she was born, and have spent way too much money on them, but I know I'll be forever grateful that I have Maya's life documented like that.
2. Being tolerant of other people-As a member of the LDS Church my standards are very different from a lot of other people's, but I think it's extremely important that we remember no matter what we may believe, we can't force our beliefs on others, and we need to be respectful of the way others choose to live their lives.
3. Animals-love them. I would be a vet if I could.
4. Being a good mom and wife.

4 phrases I use frequently:
1. Seriously?
2. Crap! (I'm with ya Stace)
3. That ticks me off! (only I don't say ticks. I thought I would tone it down for all you good Mormon folk)
4. You're killing me! (usually to Nathan)

4 things I have learned from the past: (this is a little deep for me)
1. it's a little cliche, but don't take the people you love for granted because you don't know how long they will be here, or how long you will be here I guess..
2. Forgive! and do it quickly...it only makes YOU unhappy.
3. Enjoy where you're at in life. If you spend you're whole life waiting for things to get better, you're going to miss out on a whole lot.
4. It's the Lord's will not mine. His is always better anyway. (I'm with you again Stacie)

4 places I would love to visit:
1. NYC
2. Disney World (it's serisouly my home away from home)
3. England
4. Hawaii

4 things I did yesterday:
1. slept in (I didn't have Maya)
2. watched vidoes on youtube (how much of a loser am I?)
4. cleaned
5. looked for a new car

4 things I am looking forward to:
1. Nathan coming home from playing airsoft
2. buying a house
3. graduating from college
4. being skinny again

4 things I love about winter:
1. nothing
2. nothing
3.nothing
4. nothing

4 things on my wishlist:
1. the abuzz cardi from Anthropologie
2. the pretty paisley rug from Anthropologie
3. new bedding from Anthropologie
4. a puppy

I tag:
you!

Februaruy Life

I haven't been blogging much lately, so I thought today that I would go get all the pictures off my camera and make a nice long post. Well, the poor thing has died. I put new batteries in it, and it won't turn on, so I guess it's time we get a new camera. Life has been pretty crazy for us this month. Between looking for a new car and a house, we don't have much down time. It's good stress though, and we're pretty excited to be moving. Maya is growing in leaps and bounds and it's so fun to see her learn new things. I think she's going to be in kindergaten before she starts talking though. Well, before this post gets any more boring I'm gonna go. If anyone has a suggestion for a good cheap camera let me know!

on my mind

It's 12:00 and I can't sleep, so why not blog? I have lots of things running through my head, so maybe if I type all out my head will clear and I can get some much needed sleep.

1. It's about time my little monster gets her first haircut. Is it that long you ask? Absolutely not, but she's growing a baby mullet, and we need to get the back evened (does that look right to you?) up with the top. Plus the child was cursed to have unruly hair just like Nathan and me, and the child already has split ends.

2. I am oh, so fat. I have gained, are you ready for this? 50 lbs since Nathan and I have been married, and it's about time I started losing it. Sadly, none of this is baby weight, so I have no excuse. I start dieting every Monday and by Tuesday morning the diet is over. My bf is getting married in June of 2011, so that gives me a year and a half to get my ginormous booty in shape. Although, I hope I don't lose the booty cause Nathan kinda likes it.

3. I love Nathan. He's perfect. I don't deserve him.

4. I love Maya. Right now she's sleeping soundly in her crib, and I just wanna go wake her up and snuggle her, so I think I will.

Good night!